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requesting more powerI'm still in the midst of these unbelieving Mormon Infidels. hehehe, they take away all my power to do the decisions that i know i'm supposed to be able to make. It makes me weak to be in this country where creativity is suppressed, unless you belong to a rich powerful family that sent you to an art school, and you can proove your personal worth with a diploma. I'm already good enough to get anything like that together, but they don't look at anything but the material proof, and i can't get enough power, because everyone just sees me as someone who doesn't have material proof, and their concept of Kurt ********* as being incapable is being projected onto Kurt *********, and i can't break away from their concept of Kurt ********* as being someone who is only good for being a slave to the capitalist american slave system. They just want me to be one of them, and it's not just her inlaws, it's like 99% of the population who has been brainwashed to think like this. I want to get away to Canada, but i need just a little more power. There was this Church of Scientology, self analysis course i went to, called Auditing, it's about cognitive psychology and finding your strengths and weaknesses from analysing your past. They just don't give me enough time, to even figure out what i'm good at. While all these rich spoiled brats are going to their prestigious Brigham Young University or the University of Utah, and given 4 years to plan for their careers, I don't have any time to figure out anything, i don't even have a stable foundation to make any decisions from, i'm at the mercy of umm, (what am I at the mercy of) the money is slowly trickling away, and i'm surrounded by people who worship nothing but money, so I already have only like $1000 enough for everyone to look at me as a social-economic nobody, and that's the only way they judge people is by their social-economic worth, and as that money trickles away, they are like why don't you get back into the slavery that is assigned to worthless people with no money like you while the rich spoiled brats continue going to college and striving for the careers that Kurt ********* is smart enough to do, but doesn't have the social and ecomic foundation to launch himself into college, or to convince an investor that he is worth the risk at putting money into something like garzuela.com or maybe they are just afraid of the competition, and they are making up all sorts of material excuses, when they know that Kurt ********* is better than them! But what can i do about it? I'm going to think about that for awhile, what can i do about it, besides write reports about the injustices of society in the United States and the World today, and how my future career is crippled because of how the system is set up that only the wealthy can go to the good schools, and get the dream careers, and even if some people like myself have less money but are more intelligent than those spoiled rich kids, i still have to just beg for financial aid, i don't want to go through programs for financial aid, i want it all given to me just like those spoiled rich kids who get everything they want and don't even have to work for it. I don't want to work my way through school, I want to live my life like a spoiled rich brat and get all the dreamy fashion photography career, and the fashion design and do all the careers, i just have to find some Nazi idiots that will start my billion yen fashion regime (isn't that how you start a big fashion regime just get a bunch of Fashion Nazi's together, and start worshipping yourselves, and then start manufacturing and distributing your products around the world) i'm getting frustrated, so i'll send this e-mail through and see if that helps any new ideas come through, or how about one of those Celestial Vehicles to get me to Canada, so i can get back in my travel agent career, and feel more comfortable THERE IS NOTHING IN THE UNITED STATES FOR ME GET ME OUT OF HERE GOD! DELIVER ME FROM THIS EVIL! Amen heehhehehe okay i hope that works, maybe God needs a damn hearing aid or something, i don't know what the deal is, or maybe the power of Satan is so powerful in the United States that God can barelly even get into this money worshipping realm. GOD HELP ME OUT HERE I NEED TO GET TO CANADA MAKE ME A CLEAR PATH TO CANADA AND DELIVER ME FROM THIS EVIL HELLHOLE OF UTAH NOW! hehehehe Return to The Epistles. | |
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