kurt plays the victom
that's kinda like telling someone who just got raped "oh quit acting like such a victom" like it's an embarrasment to act like a victom, even if you really were a victom. I remember working for 6 years, and then the last year i was working was 2002, (i'm retired now, been retired since January 2003) and in December after months of anxiety attacks, because i was working full time, and stil didn't have enough money for food, and did have any close friends anymore, just neighbors to drink and do drugs with if you can call that companionship, (in Albuquerque) but i think slowly watching myself lose the normal amenities of life, like 3 meals a day, or some recreation and vacation every once in awhile. I had been working and barelly seeing the light of day, 6 days a week, and mom was like "why didn't you get a second job?" she's so caring and considerate and has all the answers. Then i got a job even after my nervous breakdown, and while my emotions were still sensitive, i was really starting to feel good about myself, it was packaging with UPS at Mailboxes Etc. (now the UPS store) and customers were saying how helpful i was, and then this guy comes in and is like "are you still hiring" and the manager is like "just fill out an application" and he applied for my job, and then he had this prestigious degree to Texas A & M or some NOrth Texas one of those texas colleges, and the manager was looking at his application after i had been working there all month as was like "oh Texas, i love that school! we're just going to let you go Kurt" and they hired that guy and let me go. so i'm like "what's the use of even trying?" and i stopped trying, and then after a year of not working, i didn't have any way to keep my apartment anymore, and i took my cat and started hitchhiking. But I know i'm just as smart as a college graduate, but i don't look good on paper, i don't have a diploma to proove my worth.
In the spiritual realm, those college degrees don't mean anything! Jesus didn't attend college, and either did Moses or Abraham, or Muhammad. I suppose angels guided me out of Albuquerque, i did have some strange sightings, one in 9 am in the morning in Albuquerque before the library opened, a pastel ball the color of KAIN's lips on endorphine.to was looking at me from way out 20 miles in the atmosphere, it was like the size of this period (.) and i barelly believed it, but the days following my eye contact with what i later called Gucci Ball, but might be kinda like Liahona in the book of Mormon, or there's a book called Zen Macrobiotics by Georges Ohsawa where they talk about the Universal Compass. But i suppose i sort of departed into the wilderness, because people were asking if they could buy my $4000 car for like $300 , that shows what great friends they were, they all turned into vultures, instead of helping encourage me to get things together, they presupposed that i wasn't going to get things together, and start talking about selling my belongings before i die or whatever.
the Pecking Order, when one chicken in the coop starts bleeding the others start pecking it to death, i suppose with humans, when one experiences difficulty, it is the job of the family, and the community, to destroy that person, like a bunch of chickens, because they think they are perfect, and they are embarrased that they thought i was one of them at one time, and they don't want to see another human with imperfections, because they see too much of themselves in a person who is having a hard time and doing worse than them. Therefore, we are all victoms.
There was this sermon, "we are like the Israelites living in Egypt as slaves, except we pretend as if we are citizens here" because the powerful people who think they are million times better than us (or at least they have a million times the amount of money as we do) are the ones who we pretend like we aren't slaves and that everything is okay. Those rumours that the economy is bad, that's just those powerful modern Pharaoh making up rumours so that they can keep more of the money and the power to themselves. All these nations like India, and Russia and America, and China bragging how prosperous they are, but only about 1% of this population is enjoying this prosperity, the rest like in America, we have the least amount of vacation i the world, but then there's like people who spend $15000 in a weekend to go to that Republican convention, i never had $15000 in my life! but everyone wants to accept the oppression, and pretend like we aren't victoms, maybe it's time to start acknowledging that we are in fact victoms, and start taking some steps to destroy some of these greedy superpowers that's just a suggestion, i thought it might make things better if they were completely destroyed, the church and the state n' the big corporations, sure wouldn't bring a tear to my eye,,
okay go back to your pre-assigned lifetime of slavery and disregard
everything i said here, i'm sorry to bother you, when you were doing
so good decieving yourself, and ignoring the fact that everyone is a
bunch of slaves.. I suppose it's true they want to kill the messenger
of Truth..
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